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How to be gentle with yourself.
This is an opening. An invitation. An awakening.
A reminder that the difference between past and future is but a mere tilt of the head, and that both are fantasies, of a kind — nothing more than constructions and reconstructions and dreams.
We reject the idea of make-believe because it seems indistinct, because we want to believe that the known is more than just a reckoning, because the idea of all that we hold dear dissolving is too much for us to bear.
And yet —hold yourself, dear one.
We are but mirrors.
What I see in you is all that I can and will be, emanating. It is in Otherness, paradoxically, that we find connection; the joy of recognition chest-to-chest with the door slam of rejection. What both say is that I see you, deeply and unflinchingly; that apathy and indifference are not enough for us — not an option, even.
I can’t explain how I feel when I write; how I can be sitting on the sofa or walking along, just going about my day, and believe with every fibre of my being that I have never felt so alive.
What it gives me. What it kindles in me. The love in my heart that I feel as I think of you and I think of me and we inexplicably, inextricably intermingle.