I am different now.

Integrating my inner Lover, Warrior, King.

Photo by Mords Saligumba on Unsplash

I am different now.

It’s a kind of
hubbub —

a noisy noiselessness
a spaciousness
a willingness
a grace
a pull
a grounding
[in]to
love

& the idiosyncrasy of
being many seemingly-conflicting things at once

with gritted teeth,
the ability to hold all, more
to stand my ground,
& be tall

I needed this
I needed me,
it, we, us

I needed to know that I could
feel & survive
myself

I miss you
& I don’t want to be
tall

I want to be
small

I want to be
helpless

but/and
this is just
a moment

I love the [wo]man I am be[com]ing

[s]he is
forthright
in service to
a greater good

[s]he
knows
what
to
do
and
[s]he
won’t
compromise
[for]
it

I admire her courage

[s]he is what I needed.