I’m doing this for me first.

Dancing in the dark. Dancing with my shadows.

Photo by Monica Valls on Unsplash

I dance with
radical transparency
to make a point.

I like to
push myself.

I like to
feel myself.

I learn where I stand
by coming up
against my edges.

This is not performative.

I’ve been alchemising so much rage lately.

I’ve been letting myself FEEL
the muck, the grime & the heartache.

I’ve been letting myself
dance in the dust.

I’ve been letting myself
roll — & roar — in the mud.

I’ve been learning not to be afraid.

There are at least three ways of looking at disappointment, as it relates to not following through on what you said you would do.

“I promised too much [of myself].” — I let you down